You Have What It Takes Within YOU!
My journey of healing started because of my own personal limitations that I was no longer willing to accept. I know you see the empowered, outspoken, confident and bold woman I am presently and it was not always that way for me… as a little child, I was riddled with fear and couldn’t open my mouth to speak. As a 9-year-old child, I had a desire to recite poems and pros and just didn’t have the confidence, but I found that I was gifted on the athletic field and had an innate confidence and desire to win almost all my races. As a child I found the need to perform and that gave me great attention which I so desperately needed.
I loved English as a subject or module and loved writing I wrote a play in High School in grade 9 and directed and played a dual role in it! I realised I had come a long way from the little "Me" who was afraid and couldn’t open her mouth to even speak! I had overcome some of my fears. I HAD IT IN ME ALL ALONG!
Throughout my life I was exposed to trauma, pain and suffering and made numerous poor choices as a result of these afflictions.
I tried to pretend like I was ok now, and I could just be strong and move on without resolving any issues. I also tried to live what I called an "authentic life", I allowed people who were emotionally abusive, filled with disrespect to hurt me and made excuses for them, brushing it off as they are hurt and they didn’t mean it. Truth is, it was ABUSIVE! Leave it and it just gets worse! I realised that I taught people how to treat me and only I could stop this abuse.
Initially there were seasons of pretending that "all is well" at least it's not like this person or that person, I compared my life with others to remain comfortable and complacent and also hide behind the perfect life. I tried to control situations out of fear hoping I would solve issues that were not mine to solve so that I could feel better! There were many seasons of: …" if I pray more then it would go away. Faith without works is dead!
I realised that I could sit there and ruminate over the injustice or I could get up and create the life I wanted. I began to see that with concerted effort, little by little, the more I worked on improving me, spiritually, mentally and physically, the more I grew and the more successful I became. Self-awareness, being authentic, clarity in what you want, honouring your boundaries, speaking your truth, and healing your past are all necessary for you to keep moving forward and a significant part of a successful life. I was undoubtedly made for more!
As a university drop-out at 18, purely because I didn’t believe I deserved to be there and very broken, depressed and filled with grief I decided that my dream would one day be to go back to university. At the age of 33, married with three beautiful children, my passion became a reality. I started with a degree in Psychological Counselling because I wanted to help people grow. I graduated and enrolled in an Honours Degree programme in Psychological Counselling and over the years the gift of writing, speaking and counselling became my passion which I wanted to share so desperately! Having been also greatly blessed with the gift of entrepreneurship and business as well, I obtained a Masters' degree in business Administration! I speak at various conferences, churches and at an International Women's Conference in New York! (A dream that came true!).
What changed?
The more I worked on ME the more I Grew!
IT ALL STARTS WITH YOU!
It doesn’t matter so much what people believe as it does what YOU believe. And if you are here reading this, then there is a voice inside you telling you that there is more…
There is more for you in life. You can do, be and become better when you know better.
The real work…the work that challenges you to look deep within so that you can realise: I owe it to myself not anyone else, I COME FIRST! The work that will change your life (I learnt this later in life) is definitely worth it!